Men always wants their happiness to last for an eternity, but they never know there is always a great price to pay for happiness that last forever.

It was a sin called cecity…

But no one could ever wants to let go…

****

“How do you do today, Hide chan?” There was no reply to his greeting just as usual. The room remained silence. The man in the room sat perfectly still on his wheelchair, facing the large window motionlessly. On the other hand, being quite familiar with the lack of respond from the older man, Aiji moved quietly across the room to open the window, letting some fresh air in.

“ The weather is so fine today ne…”
Turning his back from the window, Aiji took a seat beside the handsome red haired man. Ray of sunlight shone gently upon the older man’s face and his crimson hair, highlighting his remarkable beauty.

Even though now all this man could do was to sit helplessly and motionlessly on a wheelchair, his ever surviving relayed on other’s help so completely, his existence was still so remarkable that you could hardly ignore. He was thin but it did not make him look unhealthy or weak. Beneath his bright red long hair, there was the finely shaped figure of his delicate face, with a pair of beautiful eyes that you could imagine them to be bright and clear like icy water in the past, before he fell into the depth of his silence.

Even now his eyes were still beautiful to look at, but now all Aiji could see in those eyes was emptiness, gazing at the empty space in front of him blankly, like a pair of fine glass balls.

“…Hide chan…you had been sitting there all day, right? Jun , Akira and Ryutaro had just gone outside to play not so long ago…So…had you seen them walking pass your window then?”

Hide remained as silence and ignored as he used to be to Aiji’s question. No one was sure whether Hide was still able to hear things or not in such condition, but still Aiji kept going back to hide’s room, talking to him as often as he could.

Because since the first time he was took to this room, Yoshiki had permitted him to visit Hide as long as he was free to do so. And the brunette knew that Yoshiki himself used to talk to Hide from time to time as well behind locked door.

However, all he could do in his visits to the red haired was to make conversations that would gain no respond from the older man as if he was talking to himself alone.

Aiji had no idea who Hide was, or why he would be in such condition, unable to talk or move for all these years. Everything about the red haired was a mystery to him, which he never bothered to question anyone for an answer.

Still there was at least one thing about Hide that he could be sure of, whoever Hide was, he must be someone important to Yoshiki. He was sure of this not only because Yoshiki had taken great care for the paralyzed man in every single detail all along, but also because the way the curled haired man acted when he was near Hide, and the gentleness and deep affection in his eyes when he laid eyes on the red haired. Aiji had never seen such look on Yoshiki’s face when he was facing other people.

It didn’t mean that Yoshiki was a mean person toward the others. In fact Yoshiki treated everyone nicely and equally enough, but still you could tell that to him, Hide was different from the others.

Besides, Yoshiki also loved to invite children to his mansion as his guests. As a result, it wasn’t unusual for the mansion to be filled with little children. There were so many of them that Aiji had long been lost counted of them…

These children…who were brought to this mansion by Yoshiki or Toshi, they always arrived as a group of three or two together. Yoshiki would let them play and have as much fun as they could under his roof for a period of time. And during this period of time, the quiet mansion came to life with children’s laugher and cries.

Until the children vanished one after another eventually.
Every single one of them disappeared eventually. So this time it’d be the same, right?
Akira and Ryutaro…they’d also be gone and disappeared one day sooner or latter, and never be seen again…

Yes, these two would vanish soon or latter one day, Aiji knew it was going to happen. After that he and Jun would remain in the quiet mansion with Yoshiki, until another group of strange children arrive again…

It was something that fated to happen, nobody could stop such thing, he had known it all along, but still in the back of his mind Aiji still refused to face this fact…

It was truth that Aiji like Akira and Ryutaro, liking them for they, like all the other kinds, had something he could never have. Especially child like Ryutaro, a truly innocent that didn’t know how to doubt…

“hide chan, you have been sitting there alone all along, what are you thinking then?would you tell me? Would you feel…lonely at all, I wonder?”Aiji spoke to his silent companion, but as usual, his questions didn’t be answered in any manner.

Maybe…hide was the most suitable to be living in Hayashi’s mansion, came and gone did the little guests that Yoshiki brought back home, season came one after another remarking the flood of time. But in this isolated mansion, no matter what had happened, Yoshiki, Toshi, Jun and he himself would be the only four people who would be left behind.

Therefore, soon or later, Akira and Ryutaro will vanish, never be remembered.

And only hide, who was unable to feel anything, could be remained totally untouched by the loss of life which took place here constantly.

“mumm…mui……mumm…”

the sound of cat’s purring reached his ears, the sound was from outside of the glass window. Without looking out of it Aiji had already known that it must be the kitty Rill—Yoshiki’s gift to Jun. But why was she outside?
Out of curiosity, the brunette gazed out of the window, and saw Rill stood in the tiny space before the window. Seemingly uncertain where she should go…
“Rill…”
Rill’s ears turned, she seemed to have heard his voice.
“Rill…come here…”Aiji opened both the window and his arms for Rill, ready to bring her back in.

But ,Rill obviously had something else in her mind.

“Iyaaa---!”the kitty jumped to him, but her claws teased the flesh of the back of Aiji’s hand at the same moment. Stunned by the kitty’s rough behavior, Aiji covered his wounded hand, the wound wasn’t deep but blood still came out from between his fingers…

he continued to stare as Rill landed on the floor with a puzzle look in his eyes. But the latter only glanced lazily to him for second longer, then slipped elegantly out of the room.

“it’s strange ne,hide chan…Rill didn’t seem to be in her normal stage…he didn’t use to be so mean and rough to people…had I done something wrong to her ne?” he didn’t remember treating Rill poorly before…but there was still chance for him to have done so without remembering it. He knew how his memory had become since he resident in Yoshiki’s house…
Rill’s changes…was started from that day…now Aiji was recalling something…her abnormal behaviors began the day of her return after being missing for the pervious few days. Due to the fact that cat can’t speak, nobody found out what had happened to her. So nobody knew why the kitty’s furs would be so stained with blood when she returned to the mansion either.
To sum up,Rill’s abnormality must have something to do with the event that took place in *that day*, he was quite sure of it…since the missing event…Rill was so filled with fear and hatred for people that only Jun was still allowed to touch her…
“but even if I asked you all these questions, you wonld’t know how to answer do you, hide chan?”he sighed slightly to himself.

Not only hide, even he did mean to find someone to ask the question, there would be no one he could come upon. Yoshiki and Toshi weren’t going to offer any answer, nor did the maids in the mansion, and Jun couldn’t speak.

”…Ita…it is time for me to go I suppose…see you later, Hide chan.”Aiji bowed slightly to the silence one, then moved to the door. But…

“!”He found Yoshiki standing in front of him once the door was opened.
Did the older man just happen to be outside of the room while Aiji was about to leave? Or he had been behind the door and prying all along?
Aiji was filled with fear when the last thought came to his mind. He tried to read Yoshiki’s expression but the latter gave nothing to him.
(Author:Yo-san, you’re horrifying!>_<)
No…Yoshiki had no need to do things such as prying behind people’s backs. Because nothing happened within this mansion could go unnoticed by its master.
Eventually, Aiji was the one to speak up.
“Yoshiki…I had no idea you’d be back so soon…I, I’m sorry…I will be gone now.”
“why did you say sorry to me when you had done nothing wrong at all?”Yoshiki was smiling kindly to him as usual, but there was still a little hint of mockery in his tone.
“…….”Aiji didn’t reply, he never dared to express himself too open-heartedly in Yoshiki’s presence.
Meanwhile, Yoshiki’s attention had turned toward Aiji’s hand. “Mou, what happened to your hand?”
“this…it was Rill…because I was too careless… …”
“then you should go to Toshi immediately for treatment. I won’t be pleased to see any scar be left upon you…understand?”
“Yes.”
“It uneven me so much to see you let that beautiful skin of yours broken. You really are a child who never know how to look after yourself ne. And it is the only thing of you that would remain unchanged no matter what, isn’t it?”Yoshiki commented.
“………if there was nothing else for me to handle, may I go now?” Aiji lowed his libs.
Yoshiki nodded, but when Aiji was about to climb the stairs down, the older man called out to him again as if recalling something…
”Rgiht.… the children are about to be back soon…so you’d better bring Akira up to the third floor tonight, you should know what to do, right?” Yoshiki smiled again, but there was wickedness in the way he eyed the younger one.

Tonight…it’d be done tonight?

He could believe it, the event would take place so soon…soon Akira was going to...

“I understand now, Yoshiki…as your wish.”Aiji nodded weakly to the older man then made his way out.

*****

“I’m so sorry that I’d kept you waiting today…hide, gomen ne…” Yoshiki made his way toward his lover, bended down to place a soft kiss upon his forehead. Then pushed the wheelchair before the dressing table, picked up a wooden comb and started combing the latter’s crimson hair tenderly.

“ I still remembered I’d always been longing to stork your hair, since the first time I saw you…”upon speaking, a faint little smile bloomed across Yoshki’s face.” The long, bright red hair of yours…so soft and pretty to look at …”

The beautiful crimson of Hide’s hair…which had always stayed in his heart since he first laid eyes on it and would be never gone away thereafter….

”And…I also remember…how beautiful your smile used to be …demo …”Yoshiki continued to comb gently thought Hide’s long hair, but his expression turned gloom slower, the flash was leaving his eyes.. “Why you never smile for me again for so long?”

” It was so long ago that I’d seen you smiling at me…” Yoshiki sighed deeply with sorrow in his voice.

Now Yoshiki had done with hide’s hair, he put the wooden comb down, then wrapped his arms around his beloved’s neck tenderly, buried his face into the red hair.

” Had you not been smiling for too long, long enough for you to forget how to smile again?”

However, hide remained motionless just as always, nor did Yoshiki say anything further. He simply hugged hide tightly and let himself sink into the unique sense and touch of his only beloved.

The room fell into complete silence again.

After a long period of time, long enough to make people wonder whether the two had turned into two statues, did Yoshiki cocked his head from hide’s hair. Almost dreamingly he opened his mouth to ask another question that had never ever been answered. “ Are you still mad at me? Is it the reason? So you refuse to speak to me again, am I right? ”
I knew that you were angry with me. Even though you never utter a word… I knew what was in your mind even without you uttering it… because I was the one who know you the best, in return you were the only one who understand me as well…
Therefore I also knew that you were the one who would be the most upset to see things turned out as they were now…
You had any right to be mad at me…but I’m paying for my crime already, paying the price heavily enough all these years… and it was still not enough to make you forgive me? To forgive my sin? You really couldn’t feel a thing about it? Really didn’t care how much it hurts me just to watch you with you sitting there so lifelessly, and your face looks empty? How long must you punish me ?

You really weren’t going to forgive me? For the rest of our lives?

”Please…just look at me, look into my eyes like you so used to do, just for once again…look at me…so I could hold on for you …if I weren’t able to stay with you, to hear your voice again, I’d rather die …”

(Voice From Heaven: but…Yoshiki doesn’t seem to be the type to pour his heart out to anyone like this and beg forgiveness…it just doesn’t look like him!
Author: YEAH!!! If hide were not so motionless, Yo-san would NEVER utter a confession like this! ^__^
VFH: care too much for his image, that Yoshiki …||||||||
Author: *evil giggles* Hahahaaaa!!!!XDDD)

“But…I don’t care whether you forgive me or not. I…I would never let go…I would never let go of you…only you are the whom I’d keep no matter what. Do you know? I would never let anyone else but me to have you…” Yoshiki kneeled before the wheelchair, placing his hands on hide’s arms.
“Hide kun…there would be one day when everything go back to what it used to be for the two of us, would it?” the long hair brunette asked his final question, but his lover’s silence remained unbroken. Yoshiki sighed deeply. His face which had so used to be looking calm and strong, was now a mask of sadness and loneliness.

****

Ryutaro and his companions were back shortly after Toshi fixed the scars on Aiji’s hand.

“Akira, come here.” Aiji stood up and cheered Akira When seeing the latter walked out of the dinning room.
“Huh, what do you want?” Akira walked forward to his side tamely. Having too much of* the sweetmeat which prepared by chambermaids, the boy had a very sleepy look on his face. It wasn’t easy to feed the mouths of their little guests, still those chambermaids in black dresses and white aprons managed to come up with all kinds of delicious food from the kitchen day after day, just like a magician brings rabbit out of a empty hat.

“You have to come with me…”Aiji spoke to Akira,as if he was replying a line that he’d practiced for husband of times. “I have…no…Yoshiki has something to show you upstairs…

“Really?” Akira blinked, thinking that it could only mean that Yoshiki had some gift to him…it must be!

“Shhh,keep your voice down, it’s a secret.” Aiji ordered gently, his lips curled upward nervously.
“okay, okay!”Akira childishly covered his mouth with his palms ,”I won’t tell anyone..”
but seconds latter he hesitated again “but…but…we really don’t need to bring Taro-san along?”
“No need, Yoshiki hadn’t said he could.”Aiji answered his question quickly.
“You sure? but…”
“Don’t worry about Taro-san, Yoshiki’ll bring something else for him later…now go with me.
Akira was silence for a while, then decided that what Aiji told him did make sense, then he nodded and followed Aiji. As the two moving through the passway, Akira asked.”where are we going?”
“To the third floor…”
To the third floor? It was hard for Akira to keep control of his curiosity. He and Ryutaro were allowed to visit almost all the chambers in the mansion freely. But not the third floor. So what would Yoshiki keep for him on this mysterious third floor ne? it was so very interesting…
Therefore, the tow made their way through the corridor, walking up the stairs quietly, up and up they went until they reached the third floor. Much to Aikira’s disappointment, the third floor was just as ordinary as any other parts of the mansion.

”there we are.” Aiji stopped at the door at the end of the corridor, he picked up a sliver key from his pocket, unlocked the dark wooden door and let the boy in.
”the thing he readied for you is inside….”

There was no lamplight in the room behind the door, all Aikira could see was some vague shade figures.

“Uh…could we turn on the light?” the third floor wasn’t as fun as he imagined, Aikira was a bit scared now. Was it a joke of some sort? He turned his head back toward the direction of the entrance, but---

the wooden door throw itself back briefly, shut all the light out of this dark room.

Then darkness fell. Darkness, complete darkness.

“Na..Nani…!?”Akira paused for a seconds back rushing to the closed door, knocking the door loudly as he turned the handle.

“open up!!what do you think you’re doing?”

but the only answer he got was a blurred noise of a key turning itself quickly around the lock.

The door was locked.

Outside in the corridor, Aiji turned his back against the door as if fearing that Akira might break the door down.
No, the thing he truly afraid of wasn’t Akira…it was the thing in the room. Because he could be surer than anyone else that a hideous, unspeakable thing was coming out, just behind his back, separated by a thin wooden door…and Akira was about to be its scarifies.

“Let me out! Open the door! It’s really scary!” Akira continued to scream; his cries and the noise of his small fists hitting on the hard wood matter came out of the room. But no matter how loud he cried, nobody would hear him.

Yes, nobody…

Expected Aiji…

…make it stop…somebody please do something to make this horrible scream stop! The noise of children’s screaming crying and struggling…he could even hear them in his dreams!

“please…forgive me…”

the noises from behind the wooden door went weaker and finally stopped as Aiji shivering helplessly, running for the stairs.

Please forgive me…I had no choose…I don’t want to do it to you…but I can’t disobey Yoshiki’s order neither…
But Aiji knew by heart that after what he’d done to som any innocents, there was no way he could find forgiveness.

Because even Yoshiki was the mastermind behind all these, still was also guilty, for choosing to ignore those dreadful cries from his victims…

There would be, no forgiveness, right?

****

The next morning.

(Voice From Heaven: What? It was the next day already?
Author: I dun care! As long as the story could go on FAST I dun care!!>___<||||)

He had no memory how he managed to go back to his own room, nor how could he manage to fell asleep after experiencing such things once again. But when Aiji opened his eyes again, he surely was lying on his own bed. The sun was already shining high above the clear blue sky.

Oh, another day had begun…

It was another ordinary morning within The House of Hayashi, everything was still the same, as if nothing had ever happened.
He knew that he’d got up late because he could hear the chambermaids cleaning the corridor, as usually they wouldn’t do so before the breakfast time.

After tidying himself up as usual, Aiji walked down to the living room.

Yoshiki was sitting there, in front of the piano, playing a beautiful yet unfinished melody, with pagers on top of it. As Jun sat quietly beside him, watching the older one linking the pieces of melodies together slowly till they reach perfection.

“you’re late today!” Yoshiki cocked his head from the papers, smiled to Aiji, who was standing by the door.

“Good morning, Yoshiki…”Aiji replied.”And Jun-kun…”

“Come to sit with us, would you? Jun looks he’s boring today…it’d be nice to have you here keeping his company.”
Jun rose from his chair before Yoshiki finished, walking toward Aiji and hugged him soundlessly without a word.
“Jun, what’s the matter?”
Jun shoot his head, eyeing him steadily with a little pout upon his mouth, then pressed his head on Aiji’s chest, still without uttering a word.
“Jun…?”
before Aiji could say anything, Ryutaro entered the living room quickly.
“Good morning, mina san!” he cheered happily to everyone in the room.

“Good morning, Taro chan.” Yoshiki cheered him back.
Then Ryutaro scanned the room careful, but the one he was looking for wasn’t in the room.”Ano…where is Akira? Any of you know?”
“I haven’t seen him today.” Yoshiki answered quietly.”Not all day.”

“Really? So where is he now? He’d promise to keep my company yesterday…”Ryutaro murmured to himself, leaving the room to look for Akira.

However, everyone in the living room knew that the boy wouldn’t find his playmate.

Perhaps Ryutaro would think it was strange for Akira to leave the mansion without a word, but he couldn’t possibly guess that something terrible had happened to his friend. He would be like so many other children before him, hardly having any second thought to the disappearance of their playmates until it was too late for them. The House of Hayashi was such a safe happyland for them to enjoy, so nothing bad would happen here

Nona of them had suspired anything, till it was too late already.

This time it would be no different, few days later when Akira was still nowhere to be seen, Ryutaro would naturally believe that Akira had returned to his family…

Surely Yoshiki and Aiji had no troubled expecting all these, probably even Jun had known it too…

Yes, even Jun who had always been keeping his silence so perfectly, knew what was going on in the house all along.

Questions had always been in Aiji’s mind when it came to Jun. Even Jun never got himself involved with the *events* inside the mansion at any levels. He kept his silence, appearing to be almost as motionless as hide. Still deep inside those clear calm-looking eyes of his, he knew what was going on, only that he chose not to put his hands on any of them, nor to bother himself to mind.

Wrapping his arms around Jun gently, Aiji settled himself and the dark hair boy on the sofa. At that point Yoshiki was too deep inside his own world with his music that the older man seemed to forget their presences in the room.

“Jun…” the brunette whispered near Jun’s ears.

”Sometime I think…you”

he never mentioned anything, never spoke a word to whatever events took place under this roof…and never did anything to prevent anything from happening…all he even did was staying aside and watching…it was really…

it was really a cunning…and cruel way of being.

Jun, you’re cruel deep down your heat too…just the same like me.

Part 2 to be continued…

Oh my god! Part one is done eventually!^^;;;
I know it’s not scary enough but I’d done my best!>_<

And…okay, Jun in this story doesn’t speak.^_^