Kumo no ito ~The Spiders' Downfall~

Comments: WOO EPILOUGE MEANING IT'S DONE WITH :D:D:D Aren't you all

just bursting with happiness? I was all suprised because, when I had

called it kumo no ito, I hadn't really been calling it that for like,

the lyrical content of that song. But when I wrote this part, I went

and looked at the lyrics and saw how WELL they fit with this fic, if

you just think about it. So dude. That's why the first part of the

epilouge is lyrics from the gorgeous song by Pierrot, "kumo no ito".

I really hope everyone enjoyed this fic, and don't worry, I'll post

more fics very soon. mwaha. ::huggles::

Genre: Angst, ANGST, ANGGGSTTTT! :D don't ya just love it? Oh and

uh...romance, or something. :x

Rating: R o.o probably.

Pairing: Kirito x Kohta, Kohta x Jun, Kirito x Aiji...I think.

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EPILOUGE:

"If fate can't be changed, I'll stay with my cheek here

when judgement finally comes, I'll cradle myself and entrust my body

if we won't be chosen, at least we'll gently hold hands

when ruin finally comes, we'll close our eyes, and entrust our bodies

in the crumbling ruins, I won't let go of the hand I hold

watching from the side, the crowd of people coveting the spider's

intention

let's spend the last memorial day together

as the light falls from the sky, and we're caught in a rain of glass

shards."

-Kumo no ito.

I failed.

I don't know how it was my plan fell apart. It seemed so well thought

out to me; I thought I had thunken everything through to the very

last minute detail.

I was wrong...I hurt all the people I had never wanted to.

I've torn a hole in both Aiji's and Kohta's heart. Aiji's I can

repair, but Kohta's...I can only hope that Jun will take good care of

him, just like I would have.

It's quite ironic, you know. Here I was tempting each of them to

enter my web and yet, I was the one being played. I was too blinded

by my own interests and my own love to see that fact, but I see it

now quite clearly. It seems so obvious, too. Takeo evaded my web.

I must give him credit for that.

It's better now, though. Kohta and Jun are as happy as they ever

were. They do everything together. It's really cute. They're really

cute.

A few months ago, Kohta moved out of our apartment.

It was because of Jun's wishes for them to buy one together. I

happily obliged. After all, from square one I wanted Kohta's

happiness. I hope Jun realizes that now. The night before he moved

out he came into my bedroom and crawled into my bed, asking me if I

would hold him and rock him to sleep one last time, in the comfort of

our own apartment. Again I happily obliged, reliving my dreams for

one final time before having to let him go. It was such a serene and

beautiful night. I won't ever forget it.

We feel so right together, but it's not meant to be.

After some trials and time, Aiji has finally forgiven me. I tried to

explain it to him but he didn't want to hear it. I told him I didn't

want to hurt him at all. He believed me. He's my lover now, my only,

and soon after Kohta moved out he moved in. I really do love him so

much. He's one of the most intruiging and naturally dazzling

creatures I have ever met.

But there is still that part of me that wants Kohta. That part of me

will always want him.

Because I was lying when I told Kohta I didn't love him in that way.

It cut me so bad, the way he looked at me. I will never forget that

stare.

But life moves on, and though I'm sometimes trapped in a whirlpool

full of wonderous memories of himself and I, I must resign myself to

the fact that these things will occur only in my dreams, and that I

must cling dearly to the memory of holding him in my arms and knowing

he was mine.

My web is broken. The firefly hovers almost suspiciously, but

lovingly. The butterfly is trapped within my grasp willingly, and I

watch as the little spider and ladybug flit about in happiness.

Even though the one next to me isn't him...I won't let go of the hand

I hold now, caught in a rain of glass shards.

~Kumo no ito- the spider's downfall: END~